And a lot has happened since I last posted. One being that my hair is many different colors yet still looks perfectly normal(weird, I know). Another is I got a new phone a few months ago and I guess I can post more because I got the blogger app and don't have to worry about having my laptop with me. Another is that i couldn't go back to school this year due to financial reasons. I got a new job that is more stressful than it should be. There's still a guy, the same guy. I actually had a boyfriend over the summer, not the guy I've had a crush on for nearly 2 years. A different one, but that ended because it turned out to be more trouble than anything else. I at least found out that while I'm still trying to get through school, I don't need to be in a serious relationship unless I really want to be. Case in point: one of my guy friends keeps trying to get me with my long time crush, but he doesn't understand that I don't want anything more especially since it would be long distance, been there done that, not doing it again. This guy friend is a close enough friend that I tell him a lot but I can't seem to tell him about my crush. He knows the guy, but I don't tell him everything that's going on, just too awkward. So I can't really explain that my crush and I are just friends, really just "friends" and right now that's all I need. He thinks we should be couple but I don't want that and if I did I would talk to said crush about it. So that's where I am now with the guy situation. I feel I need a new crush, just to get my friends to leave me alone about the current one.
Another thing that is going is that it's my birthday next week, my 21st birthday! I'm excited, yet not. See I have a guy friend(different one) who has the same birthday as me, he's also turning 21. We've known for 2,3 years that we have the same birthday, so we celebrate together. This year has been particularly annoying because he hasn't been a lot help with deciding what to do. We're turning 21, we should do something special, but what we've decided doesn't seem special to me at all. And recent events with other friends has made rethink celebrating with some of them at all. I'm not there this year, but my closest friends are in Clemson, and I really want to see them, but I've just gotten so fed up with all of it. I tried to tell them that this stupid planning out things business has just upset me, but they don't get it or ignore it. I want to be spontaneous, so something adventurous. But a lot of them don't seem to want to go for that. I'm so tired of it that I don't care anymore if we just sit on our asses and be a bunch of homebodies. One of friends really suggested we stay in and watch movies. I wanted to smack her. I'm not watching a movie for my 21st. Another suggested the park, what about the park screams 21st birthday??? That's for 5 year olds. The problem is I don't know what to tell them I want I do. I tried suggesting something I thought would be fun, a scavenger around campus, but my friends are too lazy to come up with any clues for it. I either need new friends, or to pretend I'm happy with what we do, I'll probably choose the latter. I'm not the type of person to drop friends over something like this. Oh but typing this is just making me even more upset, so I give up know and will post what else happened over the past year later.
Adios,
Alisha
