Finally Over!!!

I have officially finished summer classes! Hooray! Now I can go home and sleep! Finally! The torture that is Chemistry 102 is now over! I can now take a short break and not worry until August 24th, which is when I start back for fall semester. Hopefully I can get through it. I seriously don't think I'll be doing another summer course, especially not at my school. I'm still looking into transferring, but I have till April to send in my applications, that's enough time to decide. I'm hoping this week and a half is enough time for me to catch back up on sleep, who knows if I'll get any during the fall. This break also means that I probably won't be posting that much, not that I do that now. It mainly means I probably won't be posting that much on my other blog, the one I review books on. Well anyways this was just suppose to be a short rant about finally being done with summer classes. I am never going through that again!(Hopefully)

Oh and before I forget, I remember that last year I had posted about working at the post office. Well I thought I would still be working there, but they got bought out. I was going to reapply and work for the new company(they really seemed to want me), but I had applied for a couple of other jobs just in case I wasn't guaranteed a job at the post office, which I wasn't. So I had an interview with Special Collections, a branch of the library, and they were willing to hire me that day. So I went to talk to the new boss at the post office, and he told me he would love to have me but there was no guarantee and actually told me to take the job at the library. I wasn't going to argue. I kind of wanted a change. I loved working at the post office, but I have always loved the library and am hoping that this job goes ok. I also liked that they basically guaranteed me a job as long as I informed them of my plans by today. I had talked to the post office on Monday, and then called them that same day. It's the same hours, same pay. It's just a change of scenery. I won't see people as much, but I'm an introvert, I never really liked dealing with arrogant college students anyways. The only reason I say this is because a bunch of them thought they had a right to tell me how to do my job, when they had no idea what they were talking about. One girl even told me to tell whoever puts stuff in the mailboxes to make sure not to cause the boxes to open because hers was open. After talking to one of my supervisors, I was told there was no way we could of caused her box to come open from putting mail in there. She had left it open. I wasn't mad that she told me this, I was mad at the way she said, all high and mighty. No, I'm not going to miss it. I am going to miss being able to tell my friends when their package has gotten there, or being there when mine got there, and being able to get as soon as I processed it. I loved that part. I also really liked my co workers, but only a few of them are going to still be there. I'm really looking forward to my new job. I will most likely start as soon as fall semester starts, which is another plus since the post office couldn't tell me when I would be able to start back if I did get the job.

Now this is really the end of this post.

Alisha

Change...

I want a new look because I feel like I need a change. I need some clothes that tell people who I am. At the moment, I feel neither my clothes nor my hair tell people anything about me. I have always been someone who never wanted to copy what others wear. I wanted my own style, wanted to be as far from the norm that I could handle. Yet in college, I feel like I didn't do this. I feel like I didn't show people the true me when they first met me. It's hard for me to tell people anything, and I think I try to get some things out by wearing what I wear. Again, I think I toned it down when I got to college. I'm not saying I wore crazy clothes in high school. I did wear a mix between punk and skater and I don't know what. It was whatever I felt like wearing that day. I do know that nowadays I just wear jeans and a t-shirt, and I've come to hate this look. I use to wear skirts with colorful leggings and just as colorful Converse. I think I've dressed like this once, and the Converse weren't as colorful and I looked like I was dressing up and no one knew I would wear something like this on a normal day for me. I don't know what happened to me. I know I learned more about myself once I got to college, but yet I changed the one part of me I thought I knew. I changed how I dressed and I don't like it. I don't like it even more that stores I loved to shop at have started selling clothes I would never wear. I love my shoes, but the one time of the year that I am actually willing to wear sandals(I don't like flip flops, I'll only wear them sometimes) they start selling these ugly gladiator sandals. I loathe those shoes. I don't get why no sandal besides the ones for old ladies can be anything but gladiator sandals. If they aren't than they are also just as ugly or hurt my feet. I've had the hardest time finding a pair of sandals to wear that I've gone most of this summer wearing TOMS. I want to be able to find clothes or shoes that scream me! But so far no such luck. It's either make my clothes, which is not really an option since I know only how to use a sewing machine a little bit, or start dressing like everyone else, which I don't want to happen. Again I say, I want to find a look that screams me. I have no idea what type of look suits me, I thought I did, but I can't really say I classify myself as any sort of type of person anymore. I use to dress like a prep in middle school, that's who I thought I was, then in eighth grade I decided I wanted to go more punk but not that over the top. I kept that up till maybe senior year, which is when I just started wearing anything I felt like and if I liked it, it was what I wore that day. I didn't care what people thought, I only cared what I thought, still do. But now I don't like what I wear and think that I've settle for clothes that I probably never really liked. It's not like I hate everything I own. I actually love a lot of the clothes I own, but I feel that I may have this one shirt, but not say a cool cardigan or cool pants or jeans to go with it so the overall affect is gone. Sometimes I don't wear a certain shirt because I feel that if I wear with the jeans I own then they will tone it down, and I'll not be me anymore on the outside. Same thing goes with my hair. I want it long, but my hair doesn't grow that fast and also I feel my hair style isn't me. I feel I'm having an identity crisis but only with the outside. Like I know who I am on the inside but that doesn't come through on the outside. It is completely frustrating most days, and some days I wish I could go on a shopping spree just to find the me on the outside. Just to find those clothes that will finally show people who I am. Maybe it's just in my head that the person I am doesn't come through when I step outside or when I choose what shirt to wear, maybe others can tell what type of person I am, but I think they can't. It doesn't matter if they can, I want to be the one who notices. Because I haven't ever asked someone what they think when  I know I like what I have on, it's only when I'm not sure, and lately I feel like I need to ask people and I hate that. This is just too frustrating. I'm hoping I can find this new look that shows me.

Alisha

What is in a Name?

Alisha:

Meaning: 'Protected by God', 'Trustworthy', and 'Noble.'


Do I fit my name? Am I really "trustworthy" or "noble". Some days I despise that I was given a name that's common. I don't believe myself to be normal, and would like a name to reflect this.  Maybe the spelling isn't common and maybe some people pronounce my name wrong all the time( they don't say it like you would say Alicia). Maybe I wish I had a cool nickname I would allow everyone to call me instead of my name. I do get called different nicknames but by different people. My sister hardly ever calls me by my name anymore preferring to call me Alishie in this weird voice anytime she gets a chance. I get called LiLi, but I don't think people would think that's from my name. I don't want to be called Ali because that's just as common. I would go by my middle name but I don't think it really fits me either. This post may seem like all I'm doing is dissing my name, but I really just wanted to post about if my name really suits me. 


Noble:
Meaning: of an exalted moral or mental character or excellence


Am I noble? Do I have moral and excellent character? I don't want to sound arrogant because I'm not like that at all. I don't like to talk about myself or brag. I do like to tell stories about things that have happened to me, but I'd rather not really talk that much at all. Anyways I believe that I would want to do the right thing whenever possible, and I don't want to ever cause anyone pain. I usually think a lot about things before I even decide to go through with something. It's just how I am, and sometimes I talk myself out of stuff a lot. So maybe I'm noble, but you would have to ask someone else.


Trustworthy:
Meaning :deserving of trust  or confidence; dependable; reliable:


This is what I really would like to be. I do think I can be trusted and dependable. Like I wrote earlier, I don't want to cause anyone pain, and I don't want to let anyone down. I want to be a person, my friends can turn to when they need me. I hope that this comes out to them and that this is how they would describe me besides quiet and sarcastic. 


I was just wondering about this recently, wondering if anyone else wonders if the meaning of their name matches with how they really are. I'm hoping mine does. It's a great meaning, and the type of person I want to be. I didn't talk about the protected by God part because I think that a lot of people are watched over by God even though I'm not that religious. It's also not mentioned on all the other sites I've looked at. I just wanted to focus on what was mentioned on most of the sites.


So do you believe your name matches with how you are?


Alisha 

Previously on The Alisha Show...

So the last time I had posted I talked about a little dream of mine. Nothing too big like saving the world or becoming Batwoman(which would be awesome!), no it was just about me getting to be lazy and watch movies. I'm thinking this dream can be accomplished at any time in my life, so for now it is on hold. It's on hold primarily because I am back at the oh so wonderful Clemson University taking 2 classes instead of 1 this summer session. I wish I hadn't decided to take summer classes. First summer session fooled me into thinking this wouldn't be that bad, but right now I can't stand my Chem 102 class. I don't have the same professor as I did for Chem 101, and I really wish I did. My Chem 101 professor seemed to teach it better, and I got the material a lot easier. It's not like I'm not understanding it this time, I'm one of the few people who actually passed the first test. It's just that I feel like he doesn't really try to get us to understand it. He also wants to use a book none of us have from Chem 101. A book that all the homework's based on, but it costs at least $200, and I won't ever use it again, I'll be using it for a couple of weeks, and I won't get nearly that much back for it when I try to sell it back(if they even allow me to sell it back). I was thinking about getting the ebook, but that costs $100. They really don't want me to get this book. So for now I'm just dealing with it and trying to get through the class so I can go on to Organic in the fall. Mainly I just want to get to the fall semester. I just want to get through all of it. I really wish I could transfer in the spring but I have to wait a year and transfer in the fall. I'm hoping the next year goes by well. Anyways, last time I talked about My World With Netflix, well these next few weeks I have to live in the awful world of My World Without Netflix. I'm not looking forward to it. Wish me luck with these next few weeks!

Alisha

My Ultimate Dream

This is sad but true, my ultimate dream is to have nothing to do and be able to watch random movies on Netflix all day. Ok maybe some days I actually nearly accomplish this dream. Case in point: Saturday. I spent most of it watching random movies and TV shows just because I could. If only this was my everyday life. Seriously that would be a sad yet happy life. I mainly now just want this dream because of being stuck at Clemson all summer. I hate it! I want to be at home. The thing is if I was at home I wouldn't be watching Netflix all day. I only tend to do that when I don't feel like leaving my dorm room. I use to try to be out of my dorm as much as possible because I didn't like being around my roommate or some of my hallmates. I loathed being in an all girls dorm. Now I actually like my dorm but I also don't mind leaving it, but now I have the luxury of actually feeling comfortable enough that I don't feel I have to leave after being in the room for five minutes.

So about this dream of being blissfully happy about watching Netflix movies or random anime shows. This dream will most likely be achieved one day and then I will most likely have to get a real dream like being first woman president or saving the world from some horrible future disaster. But for now I will stick to my insignificant dream that makes no one happy but me. Well it would make others happy if they knew the awesomeness of what is Netflix watch instantly. Some people may think I'm weird for always watching movies on Netflix. It's not like I can watch movies as soon as they come out on DVD. For that I say, who cares. Most recent movies that have come out I don't even want to see. None of them look that appealing or remotely good. The beauty of watching movies on Netflix is that I can watch older movies and indie films I may have never watched before because I was stuck in the bubble I like to call My World Without Netflix. I only watched blockbusters that were sure to draw 100s of millions of viewers. Now I'd rather watch a indie film that's actually really good than something that was made just to earn people a lot of money. I don't just watch anything that pops up on my suggestions list but that has been super helpful. I've gotten into the habit of reading the reviews. I only started paying attention to the stars and reviews after watching a horrible movie that I later went and looked at and read the reviews about and found that nearly everyone who wrote a review said it was awful. Lesson learned. I do have those occasional moments where I'll still watch a movie because the reviews tend to be all over the place so I must find out for myself. I have found many movies I love and had never heard of until I entered what I like to call My World With Netflix. I enjoy this world quite often, yet I am still amazed I have just spent time writing a post about it. At least it's basically free since my brother made the mistake of giving me his password. I will always be grateful to him for that. I also can't believe I did this post since I'm trying to prove I don't have an addiction, and I don't, I swear!!! I am not an addict!!!! I haven't watched movies on there lately, but since I just posted this I'll probably go on there and find something interesting. It's a great way to waste my time when I've been overwhelmed with studying and stress. But i'm still not an addict!!! 

The Torture Is Almost Over

So as of today(Thursday), I am done with Chem lab for a couple of weeks and almost finished with my chemistry lecture. To be honest the class wasn't completely horrible. I do believe that my professor is a little crazy, since he did blow something up in class on purpose. Except for that the class has been fine. I like having less people in it. My professor actually knows me and I've talked to him a few times, unlike during the regular fall or spring semester when classes have over 50 students in them or maybe a 100 or possibly 300 all together, which makes it harder for me to go and talk with my professor. The only thing really bad about my summer so far is that I've spending it at Clemson. A place I have begun to loathe. I thought by the end of spring semester I actually liked it here. Boy was I wrong! No the only thing I like about this place is the friends I made over the year. Other than that I would be happy to be away from this place. I think I have put this in another post that Clemson charges too much. Well they do that for both fall, spring, and summer. Summer is outrageous. I truly hate dealing with financial aid. They are no help, and seem to want to make you end up in debt. If I had known that I would enjoy my major so much, I would of looked more into schools that offer it. Sadly even if I had known, only 72 schools offer Food Science as a major. Most of the schools only have maybe 250 undergraduates in the major. I keep going on collegeboard and other random college search sites hoping that one day the number will change. I want the number to magically increase from 72 to 100 or more as soon as I type in the words "Food Science." I know this will not happen over night, and most likely not even while I'm in college. So for now my only opinions are to stay in the same major, transfer my junior year cause my mom actually said it would be better and I agree with her. Usually she allows me to make this decision. I think her saying I can't transfer during my sophomore year is her getting some say since I have decided that I want to transfer to a school over 1,000 miles away from my hometown. She has to be okay with some part of this. I know that it will be a big change for her. This whole year I've only been 2 and a half hours away and I have a cousin who doesn't live that far away from campus. Now I want to go to a school where I know no one, and there are none of my relatives around. Amazingly, I'm perfectly okay with this. I want to get farther away, not from her, just from my small town. Other than transferring, I could stay at Clemson, and possibly end up miserable and hating it even more. I know there are no guarantees that I will like it wherever I possibly transfer, but it's at least got to be better than where I'm at now. It's making me made just typing this right now. So I'm going to stop and hope that the week off I have to go back and go through this again is at least fun. Hopefully I get to sleep a lot. I'm seriously sleep deprived since I have an 8 AM everyday and tend to not got to sleep when I should. I should know by now that midnight or 1 aren't very reasonable times to go to sleep when I have my alarm set for 6. It's not like I listen to my alarm anyways. I always wake up an hour later. Maybe I'll eventually learn, probably not.

Adios,

Alisha

The Summer Begins

I have moved into my summer apartment. It's HUGE! I didn't expect this since this is Clemson, and they tend to disappoint. Other than having a way bigger dorm than I expected, the summer has been boring so far. It's probably because I have been hanging out in my room doing nothing since my roommate has yet to move in and classes have yet to begin. I did start back to work today but that was also boring. There is hardly anyone on this campus which is to be expected. It's also to be expected that the one dining hall that is open this summer closes at inconvenient times and doesn't serve much. I am looking forward to the rest and for classes to begin and to have something to do besides watch movies on Netflix and catch up on shows I missed. That's all I really have to say for this one. Maybe something interesting will happen this summer, who knows. 

Why Not be Nice for Once?

So my brother's birthday is today, and he turned 20. Before now my twin and I have never really given anything more to my brother for his birthday than a singing card and a gift certificate to some place. To be honest I never felt the need to really have to give my brother anything for his birthday. He hardly gives my twin and me anything on ours. I have actually never given my twin anything on our Birthday or Christmas. I sometimes view that as odd, but she has also never thought about giving me anything too. I think it's because we share the same birthday, and we - I - feel like it would be like giving myself a present. Anyways, I have strayed away from the point. So until two days ago, my sis and I have never felt compelled to give my brother anything more than a funny, singing card(cause you know those are the best). Well for some reason this week my sis has be acting really nice instead of her usual sarcastic, say what I feel, self. Not that she isn't nice from time to time, but she's never nice all week. I feel like I just jinxed it, it's only Wednesday, she still has a few days to go back to normal. Well she came up with the idea that we should give our brother an iPod. We both found it weird that since we've been in the 8th grade we have always had an iPod, and our brother has never had one. He's nearly 2 years older than us, and has never had an iPod. I find this quite shocking because what kid doesn't have an iPod or at least wants one. But no, my brother never asked our mom for one for Christmas or any of his birthdays. He didn't even ask this year, which I understand, he's 20 with a job, so he can buy his own iPod instead of asking mommy. My sis and I have been asking for one since we were in the 7th grade. We've had every kind of the shuffle, from the first one to the colorful ones that clip on. We finally upgraded from the shuffle to the nano on our 17 birthday, and I for one don't really care to get a different one. I like the one I have now just fine. Anyways, my sister in a moment of weakness(we were at Wal-Mart, when do you never want to buy something from there) said we should get him his first iPod. Up until this point, our brother has had other ways to listen to music. He's always had a phone that he could hook up to his laptop and download songs onto, but recently he got a new phone(and his own plan), and no longer can put music on it. He also has gotten into mountain biking and running a lot. We thought the new iPod shuffle would be perfect for him since it clips on, and he wouldn't have to buy a thing to strap it around his arm. I actually thought he needed an iPod because I saw the iTunes gift cards and thought about future gifts. I wanted to get him one that day, but he had to have an iPod first in order for me to go back to normal birthday presents. Again, to be perfectly honest, my sis paid for the iPod. I'm broke because I have to buy a $1200 laptop for school(and yes I have tried to find a cheaper one, believe me this is the cheapest one that is on the list that they gave me, I'm required to have a certain computer) and have to save most of my money so I'll have it when I go purchase my laptop. It wasn't the most expensive gift in the world, $55 plus tax. It's the thought that counts, remember that people. Also as my sis put it, "He can't have one better than us," well not until he buys his own. He didn't expect anything except the usual funny, singing card, which we still got. We also got him a yummy cake, and it really was delicious, and our mother cooked him dinner. This was all 2 days ago because my brother decided to spend his birthday with friends instead of family. I don't care, I was surprised he was home 2 days ago. So, as my twin and I have told our brother, this may be the last time that we do this sort of thing. Our niceness is rare, well my sis's more than mine, way more. He actually does like his new iPod. Bonus, he doesn't have to download iTunes because we already got it, and most of the kind of music he listens to is already on there! I think we did well, and just to let you know, my sis owed me money, and I told her that she didn't have to pay me back she could just say that was my part of paying for the gift. So there I did actually, kind of, buy it too. Whatever. I just hope he returns the favor. I expect a really big care package when I go away to college. It's the least he could do.

Adios,

Alisha

Just When It Starts to Get Better, It Gets Worse

So I was having to get up before six and be to work by seven. Now I won't have to be at work till nine thirty. This seems like something good, but that is wrong. It's bad because I'm being cut three hours. I won't be making nearly as much as I would of been. Totally sucks. I feel like I should just quit and have really nothing to do all summer. I need something to do. I have never really liked summer. It's too hot, and I'm always bored. I've always liked winter more. At least I've made friends with a couple of my co-workers. The only ones close to mine and my sister's age. These guys are I think at least twenty-one. I wish I was twenty-one. Being eighteen is not what it's cracked up to be. I have yet to buy a lottery ticket or go to a club. I feel like I've been jipped out of being eighteen. It's been all my choice though. So it's my fault if I haven't been living it up being eighteen. I need to get out, and do something. Now since I only work from nine thirty to one thirty, I might have some time to do something actually exciting over the summer. Now what will I choose to do? So many choices in a small town like mine. I think I would rather go on a road trip and just get away from everything. Maybe I will. I just need people to go with, because a solo road trip is no fun. I can't count on my sis going with me, she can be a total bore, and never wants to do anything fun. I somethings wonder how we're related, then I remember she looks almost exactly like me. So I know we have to be related, or Mom managed to find my doppelganger and adopt her. So I'm going to go think about what I should do to have fun in what is the most boring town in the world. Maybe they'll be something to post about later, probably not.

Alisha

Does it Get Any Better? The Answer is...

NO! What I am referring to is my job. It's just awful. It's too hot to be sitting outside all day waiting for people, and I have much better things I should be doing instead of preparing and serving(not actually) to people. Most of the time no one shows up. Today we didn't even go to one place, because they decided to stop serving there. So my sis and I had 30 minutes to waste before we had to be at the next destination. We just went ahead and drove to the next destination because it's all the way on the other side of town from where we were, so it takes forever to get there anyways. Yesterday we were late to every destination, not that any one was there or that anyone noticed. Today we were early to every place. I wonder if we'll ever be exactly on time. Tomorrow is the last day I have to go through this torture for this week. Next year, I plan on finding a different job. It's money, but I'd at least want to like my job, but still it's money, and I need that, right? Right. I'll just keep telling myself everyday when I have to get up before six during the summer, and have no time really for anything else. Yea telling myself that will definitely work. No, it's never going to work. I have to deal with it anyways. This really sucks. Blah, blah, blah. Something, hopefully, will brighten my spirits soon, or not.

Alisha

Work Is Such a Bore

As I am writing this I'm sitting on concrete waiting for people to come get food. It seems utterly pointless to be doing this. I thought someone would of shown up by now but no. All I get is someone in a Lexus who just parked here, and not doing anything. Also some old man keeps driving by. Wow! My job is fun. What my job is is this summer feeding program, where me and some other people including my twin sis, fix lunch and hand it out to kids in different communities in my town. It's something my mom's boss decided to try out this year. So at the places I went to, because right now I'm actually off work, no one showed up. Maybe it was because it's a holiday or because my sis and I looked like we didn't really want to be there, so no one wanted to approach us. No one even bothered to come up to us, so maybe it wasn't us. Who knows.

I was so bored earlier, I decided to try out my mobile posting. It worked pretty good. I just have no idea how to add a title and all that. So I will try it again some other day. Right now, I'm typing this on my laptop. So much easier than trying to do it on my tiny keyboard on my Palm.

Oh, my job gives me so much joy! Yea, I'm never going to say that again.  I just hope it gets better. Maybe someone will actually show up tomorrow. I hope so, or I'm really going to regret that I that I told my mom I'll work this. Wish me luck that it turns out better tomorrow.

Alisha

Who Doesn't Love Roller Coasters and Music?

So Sunday I went to Six Flags Over Georgia. I haven't been in about 3 or 4 years. I really do love Six Flags, even if I don't get to go every year.My favorite rides are Superman, Goliath, and Batman. So on Sunday they were having the Bamboozle Roadshow which featured All Time Low, Boys Like Girls, Hanson, Good Charlotte, Forever The Sickest Kids, Cartel, and Cady Groves. There were other bands, but they were playing in a different area, and I didn't get to see them. I don't really care too much for Hanson or Cady Groves. I was mainly there to see All Time Low, Boys Like Girls, and Cartel. I had heard of Forever the Sickest Kids before the show, but hadn't heard any of their music. I don't know why, I realized I loved every one of their songs that they played. They also were one the best performances of the day. The show started at 2 something and didn't end till almost 8. So my friends, sis, and I rode a few rides before the show including Goliath and Superman, and rode Georgia Scorcher after the show before we headed home. I really wanted to ride more, but I wanted to see this concert more. I can always go back and ride roller coasters some other day, this concert was only going to happen one day. So Sunday became more exciting than Friday, and today is just as boring as Friday was. I am so wanting to go back to Six Flags, and ride some rides. I also really want to go see another concert. Like who wouldn't want to see these bands perform? Honestly, Martin, the lead singer for Boys Like Girls, is kind of crazy. I knew he acted weird, but I have never been to one of their concerts before, so I didn't know how weird. I liked him though. He was just being himself, and he even challenged some guy out in the audience who didn't seem to like Hanson that much. But the guy couldn't get up on stage because it was against Six Flags' policy. Whatever. It's what he told us. I also didn't think that All Time Low band members were going to be like they were. The guitarist, Jack, was always running around, you didn't always see him on stage. He also went out in the crowd once. Him and Alex, the lead singer and guitarist, would talk after some of the songs, and it was hilarious. They would argue, and they fought over some hat that someone in the audience threw up on stage. Jack tried to get a hat from someone that looked like a rabbit. Alex threatened to throw picks at her till she did. Forever the Sickest Kids acted the same way. Their lead singer was my favorite. Over all, I think I will go see each of these bands in concert again. I'm hoping that later on in the summer, I can go to the Vans Warped Tour. Who knows if I'll actually be able to.

Alisha