It's Been While...

So it's been a couple of months since I've done a post for this blog. A lot has happened since the end of September. Too much that could be talked about in one post, so I'm going to shorten it quite a bit. So at the beginning of the semester I liked this one guy and we started hanging out, then we just stopped and didn't see each other that much except on rare occasions that we happen to run into each other. Before this I happen to meet my roommate's cousin, and we hit it off. Only problem is he goes to school in a different state. But we still end up talking like everyday. Then he comes to visit me, and the next week is the worse week of my life and we end up deciding(more like he decides) to not make it official and just be friends, but we haven't talked, not one word, in almost a month. So then I end up running into the guy from earlier in the semester and we end up deciding to catch up, and I realize I still have those same feelings as I did before. This weekend we hung out, and more than what I expected happened, so now I have this huge urge to tell him how I feel. I'm hoping that I don't get a rejection because I don't know if I can handle it or if it will even make sense to me. But I'm trying to go with the flow and not over think things. I just want to see what happens. Anyways this semester has been filled with experiences I never expected to happen. I can say that right now I'm actually happy for once. It truly amazes me how much I am. 

Why Can't Life be Like the Movies?

Why can't my life be like a romantic comedy where in the end everything works out like it's suppose to. You end up with the right guy and everything seems perfect. You never know how life is afterwards but you believe in your heart that it all works out perfectly. That their lives are going to be great now since the two people that were meant to be are together and always will be.

Life seems to only be like this in my dreams. Nothing ever goes like the movies and if it does, then I find myself questioning it and wondering when I'll wake up. Life isn't perfect. You don't accept that everything works out as soon as that final kiss happens. You don't accept not knowing what happens after the credits role. I find myself nowadays hating romantic comedies because they get this so-called awesome guy who just happens to be perfect for them, while you're questioning yourself about why you can't find that guy for you. Romantic comedies need to go jump off a cliff. I sound like a cynic and someone who doesn't believe in love, but I do. I'm even happy right now, but I still hate romantic comedies. Only a few of them are worth watching. Most of them have the same plot line, just different characters and maybe a different scenario, they all still end the same with me wanting to throw the DVD out the window. You can easily predict the ending. Yet with me thinking this, I still wish my life was like it. If only. 

Hmmmmmm

Well I have no idea what to title this post, which is why it got the title it got.

Anyways, what I really want to post about is the fact that I am a person who tends to obsess over something so much that it becomes the one thing I focus on. For instance, when I like a guy, which is the thing I'm mainly referring to now. I have problems focusing on anything other than whether or not I will see/talk/hang out/ anything that has to do with him. It's completely annoying but I can't help myself. I really want to think about something else but have a hard time with that. I tend to analyze everything just wanting to know what it may mean. I'm a complete idiot when it comes to guys. Last year I had the same problem, but still managed to get work done. I don't know why this year is differently. Maybe because I've been sick and obsessing over a guy at the same time. So I've decided to not try too hard with this guy and not force anything so I can focus on my school work and other important things. I have no idea if this will work but it may help me finally be able to get through my last class on Mondays and Wednesdays without worrying about whether I'm going to see him or not. But if I know me, which lately I think I don't know myself that much at all, then this will most likely not happen. I wish I could do this, and hopefully I can. Wish me luck!!!

Fall Semester Off To A Great Start!

So I've been at back at college for a little over a week now. I've gotta say sophomore year seems like it is going to be a lot better than freshman year. I plan on doing a post about the perks of the second year over the first. Right now all I really want to do is scream, with joy that is. I'm am soooooo happy right now! It's actually kind of weird. It has something to do with a guy, but right now that's all I can say since I don't know how he feels about me. I do know that every time that I see him I get super nervous and it's hard to eat. I've had this feeling before and it's always annoyed me, but it also tells me that I must really like this guy. Another problem is there may be another guy I like because I get the same feeling around him, but again I have no idea about how he feels. I'm terrible at reading guys. Absolutely clueless. I just know I have to figure this out. Now I'm kind of frustrated because I feel like I should like the one I hung out with yesterday, but I don't know anymore. Yet I'm still happy and can't help but smile. Besides this exciting news/dilemma, my classes are going okay and I'm liking my new job. Only problem with them is that I have an 8 am, and it makes me just want to go to sleep. Hopefully that doesn't happen because it's organic chemistry and I need to do well in this class. Anyways this is all I'm going to say for now. I'll post something else later.

Alisha

Life Can be Confusing

So college is hard, we all know that. At least I hope all of us know that. I wish it was easy, but it's not. I'm not just talking about classes, I'm talking about everything else as well. What do you do when you like this guy, and you're pretty sure that he likes you, but he hasn't asked you out. I need to rephrase that: more like I've asked him to do things, but he hasn't asked me. I feel like I've been the one taking the lead on this thing, and I feel I shouldn't be the one. He confuses me too much, and I can't concentrate on anything else but what's going on with him. It's awful! I can barely eat around this guy, but it's not because I don't want him to see me eat. It's because my stomach feels weird whenever he's around, and it's hard to want to eat something. I just want to go up to him one day and ask him what's going on with us. I just want to know. I think I will feel a lot better if I could just do that. I think I might be able to concentrate on other things, but I won't know that for sure till I ask him, or he just tells me one day. So this problem isn't just in college, but I'm in college, so I'm making it a college problem. And he also goes to the same school as me. I see this guy randomly except for days we've planned to eat breakfast together. If I run into him while on my way to class, I feel like skipping that class and just going to hang out with him. He told me one day, after I had ran into him on his way to class(I didn't have a class that day, since it was cancelled), that he would of have rather skipped that class just for me. I did make him late, but he didn't care. He says things like this to me all the time, and it's hard to respond when I feel like I'd just sound like an idiot. He's sweet and nice, and is always saying he'll do something or go somewhere just for me. But he hasn't told me he likes me or asked me out. This is why it's confusing. I'm pretty sure he likes me(or at least I hope he does), and I'm pretty sure he knows I like him. I think he figured that out a while ago. I just want to know what's going on.