The Torture Is Almost Over

So as of today(Thursday), I am done with Chem lab for a couple of weeks and almost finished with my chemistry lecture. To be honest the class wasn't completely horrible. I do believe that my professor is a little crazy, since he did blow something up in class on purpose. Except for that the class has been fine. I like having less people in it. My professor actually knows me and I've talked to him a few times, unlike during the regular fall or spring semester when classes have over 50 students in them or maybe a 100 or possibly 300 all together, which makes it harder for me to go and talk with my professor. The only thing really bad about my summer so far is that I've spending it at Clemson. A place I have begun to loathe. I thought by the end of spring semester I actually liked it here. Boy was I wrong! No the only thing I like about this place is the friends I made over the year. Other than that I would be happy to be away from this place. I think I have put this in another post that Clemson charges too much. Well they do that for both fall, spring, and summer. Summer is outrageous. I truly hate dealing with financial aid. They are no help, and seem to want to make you end up in debt. If I had known that I would enjoy my major so much, I would of looked more into schools that offer it. Sadly even if I had known, only 72 schools offer Food Science as a major. Most of the schools only have maybe 250 undergraduates in the major. I keep going on collegeboard and other random college search sites hoping that one day the number will change. I want the number to magically increase from 72 to 100 or more as soon as I type in the words "Food Science." I know this will not happen over night, and most likely not even while I'm in college. So for now my only opinions are to stay in the same major, transfer my junior year cause my mom actually said it would be better and I agree with her. Usually she allows me to make this decision. I think her saying I can't transfer during my sophomore year is her getting some say since I have decided that I want to transfer to a school over 1,000 miles away from my hometown. She has to be okay with some part of this. I know that it will be a big change for her. This whole year I've only been 2 and a half hours away and I have a cousin who doesn't live that far away from campus. Now I want to go to a school where I know no one, and there are none of my relatives around. Amazingly, I'm perfectly okay with this. I want to get farther away, not from her, just from my small town. Other than transferring, I could stay at Clemson, and possibly end up miserable and hating it even more. I know there are no guarantees that I will like it wherever I possibly transfer, but it's at least got to be better than where I'm at now. It's making me made just typing this right now. So I'm going to stop and hope that the week off I have to go back and go through this again is at least fun. Hopefully I get to sleep a lot. I'm seriously sleep deprived since I have an 8 AM everyday and tend to not got to sleep when I should. I should know by now that midnight or 1 aren't very reasonable times to go to sleep when I have my alarm set for 6. It's not like I listen to my alarm anyways. I always wake up an hour later. Maybe I'll eventually learn, probably not.

Adios,

Alisha