Things you don't want to do when you're too stressed out:

1. Eat
 Ok you want to eat a little, but to clarify, I haven't eaten hardly at all today or yesterday. I just don't want to.

2. Work on an English paper.
 Typing 500 words on a movie that I watched the other day, just doesn't appeal to me. Not like it ever did, but I felt more confident about getting it done yesterday morning than I do now.

3. Talk
 I have seen my friends today, but I didn't feel like talking. They think I need to let it out. I think I should just do whatever I feel like is best for me, and right now that's not talking. I have talked to them some, but they don't know the whole story, and I definitely don't want to talk to them about it right now. I just want to sleep and for this nightmare to finally end.

4. Go to class or work
 This one kind of goes with the English paper one. I decided not to go to my Biology class today. It was something I couldn't handle at the moment. I also didn't go to work today. I called in and told them, but if I wasn't going to class than I definitely wasn't going to work. I needed just to rest and try to clear my head.

5. Anything
 Truly this should be the only thing on the list because really I don't want to do anything. I'm wondering at this moment why I'm even typing this. I don't feel like typing 500 words for an essay, but I've probably already typed that much for this one post.

I plan on tomorrow being different. I'm going to try(really try) to just get over it, and move on. I'm going to go to work, if my class wasn't cancelled, I would go to it. So this is me trying to look on the bright side of things. Now I must try to get done with this essay. I have over 250 words, but it's total crap. It probably makes no sense because what I really want to type has nothing to do with the topic of my essay. I can't even really remember everything that was in the movie which only makes things worse. Again I'm going to try to be optimistic(it may not work) and this essay is going to get done. Wish me luck(in life and on this essay)!

This week has not been a good week for me. It has been too stressful and school has not been the cause. Well that's not completely true. I do have a 500 word essay due tomorrow by 5 that I can't concentrate on. It would be a lot easier to write this if I didn't have other problems going on. I don't even feel like typing any of what happened. I just want all of this week to be a dream. This whole semester has felt like a dream. I just want to finally wake up. It has turned into a nightmare. So this is what I will write about what happened this week: that guy that's been confusing me made things worse, so I've decided to move on. It wasn't a decision I wanted to make, but I am making it. That's all I feel like saying. It doesn't really matter what I write about it, it's not going to change what's already happened.

Lazy Weekends

Most weekends I like having something planned to do, but sometimes I prefer what I call a lazy weekend. Theses are the weekends I have nothing planned and intended to have nothing planned. I can just chill. I decided that this weekend would be one of those lazy weekends for me. So far all I've done today is watch some episodes of Skins on Netflix and whatever is on TV. I even woke up late, which I haven't done on a weekend in a while. I would have gone home instead of stay on campus, except I didn't know I wanted this to be a lazy weekend for me. I didn't preplan it. Being back at home I could of been ultimately lazy because there would be no way my friends here on campus could of talked me into doing anything since I would be out of town. Also I probably would have slept in even later than I did today, which would have made my mom mad but me happy. I don't know what else I will do today, I just like having the luxury of not really having to do anything.

So besides the fact that I'm totally confused by a boy, college is actually going well. I'm doing good in every class, except for Biology, but who likes Biology. I'm going to do my best in that class that I can. I did do better than expected on my Psychology exam. I made an A, which amazed me, but I'll take it. I'm also making an A in my second Food Science class. So this semester has been going a lot better than last. The only problem, besides being utterly confused, is that my roommate is not very considerate. She allows our neighbor to stay in our room and watch movies, while I'm trying to go to sleep. I have to work in the mornings, and the TV is distracting. It's not like I go to bed really early, and they also wait forever to watch these movies. 2 AM to be exact. My roommate knows I try to go to bed at least by 1. I told them about this last semester when they did the same thing. It made our neighbor actually not come into the room for a while. I'll have to talk to her soon about this if things don't change. I've been avoiding my room most days. I usually hang out with my friend that stays on the floor above me. She doesn't have a roommate, lucky her. Sometimes I end up falling asleep in there, or staying till I think my neighbor has left. Sometimes she's still in there. With the location of the TV, it's kind of awkward to try to sleep, since they are kind of looking at me at the same time. I also don't like trying to sleep with people still awake talking. So as you might have figured, I haven't been sleeping that well. I had to resort to naps, which I don't usually take. Besides this little problem and the other, everything else has been fine. I'm enjoying actually being here, and I'm glad I didn't take the semester off like I was thinking about during the middle of last semester. I would have missed out on too much that I've done so far this semester, and that would have been just sad. I'm also looking forward to next year. I'm going to be glad to have someone else to room with. So that's my rant about what's been going on lately. I hope I didn't sound like I was complaining too much in this post and the last one.

Alisha

Life Can be Confusing

So college is hard, we all know that. At least I hope all of us know that. I wish it was easy, but it's not. I'm not just talking about classes, I'm talking about everything else as well. What do you do when you like this guy, and you're pretty sure that he likes you, but he hasn't asked you out. I need to rephrase that: more like I've asked him to do things, but he hasn't asked me. I feel like I've been the one taking the lead on this thing, and I feel I shouldn't be the one. He confuses me too much, and I can't concentrate on anything else but what's going on with him. It's awful! I can barely eat around this guy, but it's not because I don't want him to see me eat. It's because my stomach feels weird whenever he's around, and it's hard to want to eat something. I just want to go up to him one day and ask him what's going on with us. I just want to know. I think I will feel a lot better if I could just do that. I think I might be able to concentrate on other things, but I won't know that for sure till I ask him, or he just tells me one day. So this problem isn't just in college, but I'm in college, so I'm making it a college problem. And he also goes to the same school as me. I see this guy randomly except for days we've planned to eat breakfast together. If I run into him while on my way to class, I feel like skipping that class and just going to hang out with him. He told me one day, after I had ran into him on his way to class(I didn't have a class that day, since it was cancelled), that he would of have rather skipped that class just for me. I did make him late, but he didn't care. He says things like this to me all the time, and it's hard to respond when I feel like I'd just sound like an idiot. He's sweet and nice, and is always saying he'll do something or go somewhere just for me. But he hasn't told me he likes me or asked me out. This is why it's confusing. I'm pretty sure he likes me(or at least I hope he does), and I'm pretty sure he knows I like him. I think he figured that out a while ago. I just want to know what's going on.