So it's been almost a year...

And a lot has happened since I last posted. One being that my hair is many different colors yet still looks perfectly normal(weird, I know). Another is I got a new phone a few months ago and I guess I can post more because I got the blogger app and don't have to worry about having my laptop with me. Another is that i couldn't go back to school this year due to financial reasons. I got a new job that is more stressful than it should be. There's still a guy, the same guy. I actually had a boyfriend over the summer, not the guy I've had a crush on for nearly 2 years. A different one, but that ended because it turned out to be more trouble than anything else. I at least found out that while I'm still trying to get through school, I don't need to be in a serious relationship unless I really want to be. Case in point: one of my guy friends keeps trying to get me with my long time crush, but he doesn't understand that I don't want anything more especially since it would be long distance, been there done that, not doing it again. This guy friend is a close enough friend that I tell him a lot but I can't seem to tell him about my crush. He knows the guy, but I don't tell him everything that's going on, just too awkward. So I can't really explain that my crush and I are just friends, really just "friends" and right now that's all I need. He thinks we should be couple but I don't want that and if I did I would talk to said crush about it. So that's where I am now with the guy situation. I feel I need a new crush, just to get my friends to leave me alone about the current one.
Another thing that is going is that it's my birthday next week, my 21st birthday! I'm excited, yet not. See I have a guy friend(different one) who has the same birthday as me, he's also turning 21. We've known for 2,3 years that we have the same birthday, so we celebrate together. This year has been particularly annoying because he hasn't been a lot help with deciding what to do. We're turning 21, we should do something special, but what we've decided doesn't seem special to me at all. And recent events with other friends has made rethink celebrating with some of them at all. I'm not there this year, but my closest friends are in Clemson, and I really want to see them, but I've just gotten so fed up with all of it. I tried to tell them that this stupid planning out things business has just upset me, but they don't get it or ignore it. I want to be spontaneous, so something adventurous. But a lot of them don't seem to want to go for that. I'm so tired of it that I don't care anymore if we just sit on our asses and be a bunch of homebodies. One of friends really suggested we stay in and watch movies. I wanted to smack her. I'm not watching a movie for my 21st. Another suggested the park, what about the park screams 21st birthday??? That's for 5 year olds. The problem is I don't know what to tell them I want I do. I tried suggesting something I thought would be fun, a scavenger around campus, but my friends are too lazy to come up with any clues for it. I either need new friends, or to pretend I'm happy with what we do, I'll probably choose the latter. I'm not the type of person to drop friends over something like this. Oh but typing this is just making me even more upset, so I give up know and will post what else happened over the past year later.

Adios,
Alisha

Curly vs. Straight

Just thought I would post a photo of my hair as it is now, straight, and how it is usually, curly.

So this is how my hair looks straight and curly. I don't know which one I like half the time. Most of the time I like my hair straight more, but I feel when my hair is curly it's more me. I feel like I look like a different person with my different hair styles. 

Decided to try Something New...

By this I mean I've decided to start talking about something different. I notice that I mainly talk about school and guys, but this blog is about who I am(yea I know since I'm a college student, school and boys are pretty much who I am, but there is more to me). One thing I wanted to start talking about is my hair. I believe my hair is a big part of me. A lot of people Identify me by my hair. I'm also mixed, so I have a really interesting hair type or so I've been told. My hair has a mind of it's own, and I've been trying to get it to listen to me, so I thought while I was trying to figure out what I want to do with my hair, I would start posting about it. This blog is not going to be only about my hair, it's still going to include anything else that goes on in my world. But this is about who I am, and again I tell you that my hair is a big part of my life. I have days that I love it and days that I absolutely hate it. Well anyways, that's all I wanted to post about. Keep a look out for more. 

All I Want to Do is Sleep...

I've been so tired lately. I just want to sleep, but can't. I for some reason stay up all night, and when I do finally get some sleep, it's not very much. Right now I'm extremely tired but know that I probably won't get to take a nap. I've gone through this before, basically for years now. I use to take something to help, but I have nothing now, and it had stopped helping anyways. Well anyways this post really has no point to it. I've just decided that I wanted to start posting more, and I guess that means that I will have a lot of posts that are just random, and pretty much about nothing(case in point: this post). So to leave this one a bit of a happier note: I may get to see the guy that I've had a crush on since last year. I'm trying to decide whether I still feel the same or I just want to move on. I don't know, maybe I'll figure it out soon. Anyways, I'm just happy to get to see him, and that ends this lovely post. OH and Happy Friday!! It took it forever to get here, but it's here! And if I don't post on Valentine's day, Happy early Valentine's Day! I'm not much of a romantic, I really only care about the candy such as is the reason I love Halloween(besides the cool costumes), but other than that Valentine's Day isn't that big of deal. So I hope it's good for everyone who loves this holiday.

Adios,

Alisha

Don't know what to call this one...

Well it's been a while since I posted on here or my other blog. I blame being busy with school and just not feeling like typing anything.
Anyways, I guess I need to do an update on what's going in my life. Where to start??? I guess I can start by saying that I'm back at school. I'm happy to be back mainly because of my friends and a guy but other than that, the semester has been ok. I can honestly tell you that my winter break wasn't that great. I wish it was better. I loved seeing my family, but couldn't stand being back in my hometown. I realize every time I go home that the only thing I ever miss is my family and a few friends, never anything else about my hometown. Most of the time I can't wait to get back to school. OH! I forgot to mention one of my christmas presents I got from my brother. It's a tattoo. It's the pink ribbon for breast cancer awareness. My aunt had breast cancer, and we were very close, so I got my first tattoo as a sort of dedication to her. I'll put up a picture later. I've been wanting a tattoo for years, but didn't decide to get it until my brother was asking me what I wanted for Christmas. I have come to the realization that I don't really care if people give me presents for holidays or my birthday. It's no longer a big deal like it was when I was a kid. I do, however, love giving others presents. I think it's fun to find the perfect gift for a friend or family member. Last year, I loved looking for stuff to give my twin for Christmas and our birthday. I couldn't wait to see her reaction to what I got her. This year, I couldn't wait to get back to school to give my roommate(this year my roommate and I are really close friends, and love being roommates) and some of my good friends their gifts. My roommate is obsessed with Chris Brown and believes that she will marry him(If you knew her, you wouldn't doubt her on this). So I went on a search for a gift that involved this. I managed to find a shirt that said, "The Future Mrs. Chris Brown." It also happened to be pink or more salmon, her favorite color. She literally couldn't contain her excitement when I gave it to her. For my other friends, I had my mom crochet some scarfs in their favorite color, and for one friend in the multitude of colors that she asked for(which happened to make the scarf look like it was from Harry Potter). I also crocheted some of them a beanie in their favorite colors. I didn't mind doing any of this because I love crocheting and it distracted me over my break, and got me out of my head. Anyways, I guess that explains why I love giving rather than receiving, and also catches you up on some of the things that have been going on. Hopefully after this upcoming weekend, I have some even more exciting news to tell you.

Adios,

Alisha

It's Been While...

So it's been a couple of months since I've done a post for this blog. A lot has happened since the end of September. Too much that could be talked about in one post, so I'm going to shorten it quite a bit. So at the beginning of the semester I liked this one guy and we started hanging out, then we just stopped and didn't see each other that much except on rare occasions that we happen to run into each other. Before this I happen to meet my roommate's cousin, and we hit it off. Only problem is he goes to school in a different state. But we still end up talking like everyday. Then he comes to visit me, and the next week is the worse week of my life and we end up deciding(more like he decides) to not make it official and just be friends, but we haven't talked, not one word, in almost a month. So then I end up running into the guy from earlier in the semester and we end up deciding to catch up, and I realize I still have those same feelings as I did before. This weekend we hung out, and more than what I expected happened, so now I have this huge urge to tell him how I feel. I'm hoping that I don't get a rejection because I don't know if I can handle it or if it will even make sense to me. But I'm trying to go with the flow and not over think things. I just want to see what happens. Anyways this semester has been filled with experiences I never expected to happen. I can say that right now I'm actually happy for once. It truly amazes me how much I am. 

Why Can't Life be Like the Movies?

Why can't my life be like a romantic comedy where in the end everything works out like it's suppose to. You end up with the right guy and everything seems perfect. You never know how life is afterwards but you believe in your heart that it all works out perfectly. That their lives are going to be great now since the two people that were meant to be are together and always will be.

Life seems to only be like this in my dreams. Nothing ever goes like the movies and if it does, then I find myself questioning it and wondering when I'll wake up. Life isn't perfect. You don't accept that everything works out as soon as that final kiss happens. You don't accept not knowing what happens after the credits role. I find myself nowadays hating romantic comedies because they get this so-called awesome guy who just happens to be perfect for them, while you're questioning yourself about why you can't find that guy for you. Romantic comedies need to go jump off a cliff. I sound like a cynic and someone who doesn't believe in love, but I do. I'm even happy right now, but I still hate romantic comedies. Only a few of them are worth watching. Most of them have the same plot line, just different characters and maybe a different scenario, they all still end the same with me wanting to throw the DVD out the window. You can easily predict the ending. Yet with me thinking this, I still wish my life was like it. If only.