What is in a Name?

Alisha:

Meaning: 'Protected by God', 'Trustworthy', and 'Noble.'


Do I fit my name? Am I really "trustworthy" or "noble". Some days I despise that I was given a name that's common. I don't believe myself to be normal, and would like a name to reflect this.  Maybe the spelling isn't common and maybe some people pronounce my name wrong all the time( they don't say it like you would say Alicia). Maybe I wish I had a cool nickname I would allow everyone to call me instead of my name. I do get called different nicknames but by different people. My sister hardly ever calls me by my name anymore preferring to call me Alishie in this weird voice anytime she gets a chance. I get called LiLi, but I don't think people would think that's from my name. I don't want to be called Ali because that's just as common. I would go by my middle name but I don't think it really fits me either. This post may seem like all I'm doing is dissing my name, but I really just wanted to post about if my name really suits me. 


Noble:
Meaning: of an exalted moral or mental character or excellence


Am I noble? Do I have moral and excellent character? I don't want to sound arrogant because I'm not like that at all. I don't like to talk about myself or brag. I do like to tell stories about things that have happened to me, but I'd rather not really talk that much at all. Anyways I believe that I would want to do the right thing whenever possible, and I don't want to ever cause anyone pain. I usually think a lot about things before I even decide to go through with something. It's just how I am, and sometimes I talk myself out of stuff a lot. So maybe I'm noble, but you would have to ask someone else.


Trustworthy:
Meaning :deserving of trust  or confidence; dependable; reliable:


This is what I really would like to be. I do think I can be trusted and dependable. Like I wrote earlier, I don't want to cause anyone pain, and I don't want to let anyone down. I want to be a person, my friends can turn to when they need me. I hope that this comes out to them and that this is how they would describe me besides quiet and sarcastic. 


I was just wondering about this recently, wondering if anyone else wonders if the meaning of their name matches with how they really are. I'm hoping mine does. It's a great meaning, and the type of person I want to be. I didn't talk about the protected by God part because I think that a lot of people are watched over by God even though I'm not that religious. It's also not mentioned on all the other sites I've looked at. I just wanted to focus on what was mentioned on most of the sites.


So do you believe your name matches with how you are?


Alisha 

What Is Up With This?

So Blogger has decided to change everything about it. I kind of like it, but it's gotten me more obsessed with going on here just to look at my page views. I hardly ever cared before, but now I want to know. I blame you Blogger! It makes me wonder who's looking at my blog, and I don't like that it has these off the wall sites that say they're my referring sites. I keep thinking to myself, "How do people find my blog through a site that sales sunglasses?" It's weird, and I sometimes wonder why Blogger even feels the need to tell me this. I guess I like knowing which of my posts are the most popular, but honestly I don't really care that much. I just really want to know how people find my blog from random sites I have never visited and don't pertain to blogs at all. Is it too much to ask just for that?

Previously on The Alisha Show...

So the last time I had posted I talked about a little dream of mine. Nothing too big like saving the world or becoming Batwoman(which would be awesome!), no it was just about me getting to be lazy and watch movies. I'm thinking this dream can be accomplished at any time in my life, so for now it is on hold. It's on hold primarily because I am back at the oh so wonderful Clemson University taking 2 classes instead of 1 this summer session. I wish I hadn't decided to take summer classes. First summer session fooled me into thinking this wouldn't be that bad, but right now I can't stand my Chem 102 class. I don't have the same professor as I did for Chem 101, and I really wish I did. My Chem 101 professor seemed to teach it better, and I got the material a lot easier. It's not like I'm not understanding it this time, I'm one of the few people who actually passed the first test. It's just that I feel like he doesn't really try to get us to understand it. He also wants to use a book none of us have from Chem 101. A book that all the homework's based on, but it costs at least $200, and I won't ever use it again, I'll be using it for a couple of weeks, and I won't get nearly that much back for it when I try to sell it back(if they even allow me to sell it back). I was thinking about getting the ebook, but that costs $100. They really don't want me to get this book. So for now I'm just dealing with it and trying to get through the class so I can go on to Organic in the fall. Mainly I just want to get to the fall semester. I just want to get through all of it. I really wish I could transfer in the spring but I have to wait a year and transfer in the fall. I'm hoping the next year goes by well. Anyways, last time I talked about My World With Netflix, well these next few weeks I have to live in the awful world of My World Without Netflix. I'm not looking forward to it. Wish me luck with these next few weeks!

Alisha

My Ultimate Dream

This is sad but true, my ultimate dream is to have nothing to do and be able to watch random movies on Netflix all day. Ok maybe some days I actually nearly accomplish this dream. Case in point: Saturday. I spent most of it watching random movies and TV shows just because I could. If only this was my everyday life. Seriously that would be a sad yet happy life. I mainly now just want this dream because of being stuck at Clemson all summer. I hate it! I want to be at home. The thing is if I was at home I wouldn't be watching Netflix all day. I only tend to do that when I don't feel like leaving my dorm room. I use to try to be out of my dorm as much as possible because I didn't like being around my roommate or some of my hallmates. I loathed being in an all girls dorm. Now I actually like my dorm but I also don't mind leaving it, but now I have the luxury of actually feeling comfortable enough that I don't feel I have to leave after being in the room for five minutes.

So about this dream of being blissfully happy about watching Netflix movies or random anime shows. This dream will most likely be achieved one day and then I will most likely have to get a real dream like being first woman president or saving the world from some horrible future disaster. But for now I will stick to my insignificant dream that makes no one happy but me. Well it would make others happy if they knew the awesomeness of what is Netflix watch instantly. Some people may think I'm weird for always watching movies on Netflix. It's not like I can watch movies as soon as they come out on DVD. For that I say, who cares. Most recent movies that have come out I don't even want to see. None of them look that appealing or remotely good. The beauty of watching movies on Netflix is that I can watch older movies and indie films I may have never watched before because I was stuck in the bubble I like to call My World Without Netflix. I only watched blockbusters that were sure to draw 100s of millions of viewers. Now I'd rather watch a indie film that's actually really good than something that was made just to earn people a lot of money. I don't just watch anything that pops up on my suggestions list but that has been super helpful. I've gotten into the habit of reading the reviews. I only started paying attention to the stars and reviews after watching a horrible movie that I later went and looked at and read the reviews about and found that nearly everyone who wrote a review said it was awful. Lesson learned. I do have those occasional moments where I'll still watch a movie because the reviews tend to be all over the place so I must find out for myself. I have found many movies I love and had never heard of until I entered what I like to call My World With Netflix. I enjoy this world quite often, yet I am still amazed I have just spent time writing a post about it. At least it's basically free since my brother made the mistake of giving me his password. I will always be grateful to him for that. I also can't believe I did this post since I'm trying to prove I don't have an addiction, and I don't, I swear!!! I am not an addict!!!! I haven't watched movies on there lately, but since I just posted this I'll probably go on there and find something interesting. It's a great way to waste my time when I've been overwhelmed with studying and stress. But i'm still not an addict!!! 

The Torture Is Almost Over

So as of today(Thursday), I am done with Chem lab for a couple of weeks and almost finished with my chemistry lecture. To be honest the class wasn't completely horrible. I do believe that my professor is a little crazy, since he did blow something up in class on purpose. Except for that the class has been fine. I like having less people in it. My professor actually knows me and I've talked to him a few times, unlike during the regular fall or spring semester when classes have over 50 students in them or maybe a 100 or possibly 300 all together, which makes it harder for me to go and talk with my professor. The only thing really bad about my summer so far is that I've spending it at Clemson. A place I have begun to loathe. I thought by the end of spring semester I actually liked it here. Boy was I wrong! No the only thing I like about this place is the friends I made over the year. Other than that I would be happy to be away from this place. I think I have put this in another post that Clemson charges too much. Well they do that for both fall, spring, and summer. Summer is outrageous. I truly hate dealing with financial aid. They are no help, and seem to want to make you end up in debt. If I had known that I would enjoy my major so much, I would of looked more into schools that offer it. Sadly even if I had known, only 72 schools offer Food Science as a major. Most of the schools only have maybe 250 undergraduates in the major. I keep going on collegeboard and other random college search sites hoping that one day the number will change. I want the number to magically increase from 72 to 100 or more as soon as I type in the words "Food Science." I know this will not happen over night, and most likely not even while I'm in college. So for now my only opinions are to stay in the same major, transfer my junior year cause my mom actually said it would be better and I agree with her. Usually she allows me to make this decision. I think her saying I can't transfer during my sophomore year is her getting some say since I have decided that I want to transfer to a school over 1,000 miles away from my hometown. She has to be okay with some part of this. I know that it will be a big change for her. This whole year I've only been 2 and a half hours away and I have a cousin who doesn't live that far away from campus. Now I want to go to a school where I know no one, and there are none of my relatives around. Amazingly, I'm perfectly okay with this. I want to get farther away, not from her, just from my small town. Other than transferring, I could stay at Clemson, and possibly end up miserable and hating it even more. I know there are no guarantees that I will like it wherever I possibly transfer, but it's at least got to be better than where I'm at now. It's making me made just typing this right now. So I'm going to stop and hope that the week off I have to go back and go through this again is at least fun. Hopefully I get to sleep a lot. I'm seriously sleep deprived since I have an 8 AM everyday and tend to not got to sleep when I should. I should know by now that midnight or 1 aren't very reasonable times to go to sleep when I have my alarm set for 6. It's not like I listen to my alarm anyways. I always wake up an hour later. Maybe I'll eventually learn, probably not.

Adios,

Alisha

The Summer Begins

I have moved into my summer apartment. It's HUGE! I didn't expect this since this is Clemson, and they tend to disappoint. Other than having a way bigger dorm than I expected, the summer has been boring so far. It's probably because I have been hanging out in my room doing nothing since my roommate has yet to move in and classes have yet to begin. I did start back to work today but that was also boring. There is hardly anyone on this campus which is to be expected. It's also to be expected that the one dining hall that is open this summer closes at inconvenient times and doesn't serve much. I am looking forward to the rest and for classes to begin and to have something to do besides watch movies on Netflix and catch up on shows I missed. That's all I really have to say for this one. Maybe something interesting will happen this summer, who knows. 

First Year is Over! Yet...

So I finished my first year of college on Thursday, but I still have to go over the summer. I decided to go to school over the summer because I needed to catch up on credits since I didn't take as many as I should have this semester. Yet I am not liking it so far and I haven't even started. This is all due to the fact that my school is charging way too much to just go one summer session, and I have to go both summer sessions. I am already in a ton of debt and I don't even have a job to pay for it all. It's stressing me out to the max, and I can't stop thinking about all the other loans I have to take out later on to pay for the other years I'll be in school. If I ever have to go to school over the summer again, I'm studying abroad. I'm not spending my time in South Carolina when I can spend it over seas in Italy or some other country for basically the same price. So that's the yet part. My first year is over. I made it through. I should be happy, I am, but I'm not at the same time because of how much it costs just to go to school. I seriously need to find a cheaper school that I actually like. I'm not sure how this is going to work out now, but I'll keep you posted about school, summer, and anything else that pops up in my life.

Adios,

Alisha